Friday, July 09, 2004
“When I first became a Christian, about fourteen years ago, I thought that I could do it on my own, by retiring to my room and reading theology, and I wouldn’t go to churches and Gospel Halls;…I disliked very much their hymns, which I considered to be fifth-rate poems set to sixth-rate music. But as I went on I saw the great merit of it. I came up against different people of quite different outlooks and different education, and then gradually my conceit just began to peel off. I realized that the hymns (which were just sixth rate music) were, nonetheless, being sung with devotion and benefit by an old saint in elastic-side boots in the opposite pew, and then you realize that you aren’t fit to clean those boots. It gets you out of your solitary conceit” C.S.Lewis
So what am I thinking about church and ministry these days? For the past few days I have been thinking of how nice it would be to just go back in to traditional church. I think this got stirred up b/c of two things 1) I just realize how many people in the emerging conversation have been hurt by the church and what if some of us went back to traditional church and took preventative action for the next generation 2)I actually finally wrote a letter to be put in this book about my friend and youth minister. As I talked about my relationship with him I realized how so much of who I am and how I think is b/c of his influence in my life during my teenage years. He was such disciple maker. And that led me to thinking about the relationships in my ministry over the past few years that give me the most pride..and they are people that I was intentionally discipling that I have seen grow and grow and even surpass me. But I also regognize that sometimes it is harder to change something old than to create something new with the correct dna from the start. Maybe it is all just nostalgia.
On another note, I will say that I feel really committed to pouring into the lives of several pre-teens. You may have read my post some time back about the sleep-over. I feel like the next thing I am supposed to do is spend time with these girls one on one and I am quite excited about that b/c I feel like god has given me vision for what do with each of them.