Saturday, November 16, 2002
how can something be so familiar and so strange at the same time? yesterday i was struck by that paradox. i made the 2 hour drive to kerrville. and the drive was really beautiful -- fall is a great time of year in the hill country. (i guess it makes texas bearable.) it was amazing b/c kerrville is the place i call home. the entire drive was familiar -- every corner, every bend, every turn .....i know that road like the back of my hand. it is strange to feel so connected to a place b/c i moved 13 times by the time i was 11, and kerrville was a place i could never wait to leave. and then to see people i have know since high school - college - after college. people that knew me pre-christ and those that have been so much a part of my journey. the few hours that i was there were loaded w/ memories. but then there was also this strangeness--from the moment i walked into the door at soul cafe -- i felt like i no longer belonged. it is that odd thing that must happen at high school reunions ( i wouldn't know b/c i skipped mine). it is like walking into the past some things still the same but you are so incredibly different. i am not even sure i have processed it all yet. i wanted to stay and yet i couldn't wait to leave.
so the image that has stuck w/ me is that of trees....and specifically of roots. i am grateful for the time i spent in kerrville. for all of the people that poured into my life and for the opportunity to try new things. it was the place god used to give me roots.
"But his delight is in the law of the Lord and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither" Psalm 1:2-3